Rest in peace Lyn Hejinian:  https://english.berkeley.edu/news/remembering-lyn-hejinian-0

 

Eros and Iteration

 

I is, am, iterations.

Desires, missteps,

 

discombobulations

assemble, reassemble

 

and come

to resemble practice.

 

Initiation slash iteration.

Like a version.

 

Over and

over again.

 

*

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A tall

version

 

afraid

of heights.

 

A version

haunted by

 

childhood epilepsy’s

seizures’ auras.

 

A wobbly

straight version

 

with streaks

of trans - lucence.

 

*

 

The bottom

falls out

 

from the top.

 

 

 

*

 

Bitter root

 

of not about.

 

*

 

Mutable

provisional theaters

 

and other

impulse structures.

 

*

 

Compulsion slash convulsion as recognition

 

Compulsion slash convulsion as explanation

 

Compulsion slash convulsion as method

 

*

 

 

Don’t believe

in ghosts,

 

know that

you are haunted.

 

*

 

Bodies

pressed against

 

other bodies

 

make psycho –

sexual palimpsests.

 

*

 

Awkwardness of

acting out

 

in front

of others.

 

Messiness

of sex.

 

*

 

Find

a form

 

of

getting lost.